Faith in God, includes faith in His timing’ – Neal A.Maxwell
Being a teacher has been a great experience so far. Every day I tend to learn something new. Be it regarding a student, myself, design, color or just life in general. Just 5 days back me and Sabiha (another faculty member, friend and sister) took the 3rd year students for a study visit to Abbottabad to study crafts for a project. We were a group of 31 individuals- all girls- 2 teachers and 29 students. They say girls are always a bunch of FUN! True that. There was music, singing, work, sketches, clicking, arguments, laughter, dance, food, walks in the rain, prayers, bathroom lines and emergency loo breaks. We took the Bhoja air flight till Islamabad.
2 days later we hear of a Bhoja Air plane crash. Hell ran over us. There was chaos. Alhamdolillah we all were safe but fellow humans had passed away. 127 of them. It wasnt easy to take it in knowing that we DID come from Bhoja Air and were booked for the same to return back to khi. The girls were traumatized, they cried. Ran over to me for a hug. I HAD to keep calm and give them the faith that it’ll be alright. Inshallah we will be able to reach home safe. Switched flights to PIA. Chucked down a day from the trip since we got a flight a day before. There was a delay in flight, waited patiently, tired to the core, to reach home, see the family and hit bed.
All kinds of thoughts occurred in my head… overflowing negativity, weird feeling of being away from home. Anything could have happened, CAN happen. But travelling alone and being responsible for a large group of students are two different things. Keeping calm and giving comforting hugs was what I did. Alhamdolillah the students felt secure. They smiled, they laughed. They felt better
All those wonderful people who made it to Allah mian had goals to achieve, lives to live. All gone in a jiffy. Say a lil prayer for them and their families. *amen*
Faith in Allah mian and calls from friends and family is what kept me going… yes I did feel a knot in the throat but im only human to feel that way. Experiences like these teach me SO much. About people, about life, about handling things, about keeping calm, giving faith and smiling
Allah mian, Thankyou for being SO meherbaan on all of us. You sure are the one Who writes the Master Plan.
Lifes at a total high at the moment. With Nani feeling better and my heart being content with all what I got, theres really SO much to be thankful for that I don’t think any post can do justice to it but yes for my own record. The yr 2012 is here! I say, this should be a year of change. A good change…a better change, Inshallah.
I am currently in the land of the shaykhs aka Dubai(staying at sharjah). A long awaited vacation, the best of its kind since it revolves around my nieces, M n M. Manoo has been more excited than I’d ever be for phupo coming over and sharing her room. There are countless moments in the day when I’m hugged and kissed and thanked for ‘coming to dubai and having so much fun’ and mehru lovingly follows what apa has to do so for phupo it’s a double dose of awesomeness! Alhamdolillah. Whatta precious! Thanks to Ada and Mayg Api for having me over. Its been 2 days and its awesome. A separate post would be good about the trip altogether
In other news, switched to an HTC. So yes, theres been progression. At first a qwerty and now a qwerty + touch and THAT too HTC chacha! So the phone reached me as a surprise, earlier than expected. Totally left me in awe and happy in my heart type. Allah Mian Thankyou.
Heres to welcoming 2012 with open arms, with more challenges and plans on the list. May Allah mian make them jaaiz and easy to fulfill for me. 2011 was awesome, Allah mian? So whats the plan Faith high, UP in the sky!
Happy new year ya’ll!
ps96: Happy birthday oh precious!
So lately I’ve been reading Tuesdays with Morrie (again). Cant get enough of that book. How life is for most of us, how we deal with it, how we should deal with it, looking back at it later how we should have dealt with it. Life had a different meaning till a few years back. Things changed, people changed, I changed, times changed.. circumstances keep changing. Sometimes a downer, most of the times a wow-er Life is the biggest of tests we’re going through. Rough patches make us tougher and stronger than we were before. We start looking at things differently. We think maturely, we become mature… and I say that is for the better. There are some who give up, most of them fight it… like I do.
Nobody said this life would be easy. Everyday is a challenge; be it work, family, projects, clients, siblings, friends, close friends or your own faith. Theres so much happening around us everyday that the day runs by. I stop and think.. WHERE are we going? WHAT is happening? WHY is this happening? So yes I am as inquisitive as child who wants to know all the W’s of it all! Sometimes i have answers in front of me and at other times I look for them.
Talking to a friend about faith last night, he said everybody needs to go through it on their own to believe in how things work. One cant impose it on them. I thought to myself, when I talk about faith in whatever happens, happens for a reason and that it is what Allah Mian wrote for us.. Am I imposing it on people? or am I just sharing it with them and giving them hope that yes it WILL become better (that was just me thinking out aloud).
Later he shared these lyrics and I couldnt stop smiling…
Slipping away, I think I’m gonna crack
Misplaced trust, loyalty stabbed in the gut
I feel, I’m seeing so clear
I thought I was never coming back
I’ve been down for awhile,
And now I’m coming back…
Realizations hit hard! I think i have a bump on my head because of it.
Art Lootmar II, happened on the 18th and 19th of June 2011. It was an event I was looking forward to. Had always been part of T2f(The second floor) virtually so was excited to be part of this exhibit amongst 12 other young artists. I was participating with my work from Ghazal Pirzada Creeative Studios. There was Anam Haleem(a friend and brother), Friends from Kaghaz kay karnamay, Mahin and the Ayesha’s from the Indus clan and a few others part of the troop. The first day went by great! With friends, family, colleagues and other artists from the community visiting, the highlight was Haider Ali’s live demo on his Truck Art paintings. The evening went by fast and I left for home happy and very satisfied with my participation at the Art Lootmar II at T2f.
The second day which was a Sunday, the show was open from 12pm onwards. We(me, S and Anam) decided to go in the evening. We reached around 6 and were to leave around 9 after pack up. It was the last day for the exhibit. We sat and chatted. T2f has a very comfortable and casual setting to it. We sat on the floor,resting on the bricked pillars, clicking pictures. I got a message from R(another brother) that if we were at T2f and that he was dropping by. It was around 8 when he and 2 friends walked in. After greeting them, they saw my work… Anams work and were now on a round to check other artists work while S and A went out for a smoke break saying.. we’ll be back in a bit.
With all the good, came in the bad.
I clicked a picture of R and Y, while they checked out Uth Oye! shirts and asked which one was better. The next thing I hear is this armed guy telling me ‘aap camera wali madam, neechay hojain’. My first thought, who the hell are YOU!? then I was pulled away by someone and I heard someone saying ‘these are thieves, sit down’ :!
There were around 30 or so people at T2f that instance including artists and the staff at T2f. We were all asked to sit down in a corner. Apparently there were 4 men and out of which 2 were armed. Where I sat, the pillar was right in front of me so all I saw was 1 guy pointing his gun on us on and off asking for everything we had. Phones, wallets, watches etc. Most people had their laptops and DSLR’s with them like I had mine in my hand. When I sat down, a zillion thoughts came to my mind while I prayed Ayat-ul-kursi. I started going numb, arms raised and my heart pounding as if it were about to burst.
I dont know how my reflexes worked, with my hands trembling I covered my DSLR with a few magazines that were placed on a low table right in front of me, put my hand in my kurta pocket and switched my phone off. We were told to look to the floor and NOT look up and if any of us played smart, they’d kill us. There was silence and a thumping heart beat and my own lips whispering Ayat-ul-kursi. While I had my eyes to the floor, I saw a laptop right in front of me. I picked a few more magazines and covered the laptop too, a zillion thoughts rushing through the brain. I look up, I see Anam to my left. We share a glance and a feeling of helplessness. Right ahead I see R, he was trembling and reciting too. I look at Anam again and I whisper, ‘S and A are outside’. I kept praying that they dont come in since the looters were all set to leave, after collecting everybody’s valuables. I look towards the door and I see them walking in. S looked at me and figured what was happening, and there! Their phone and wallets gone too.
7 minutes seemed like 80 years. The guy held his gun up and asked all of us to lie down, heads down and said, if anyone of us tried to move before they left they’ll shoot us. The moment froze. I heard the door close and their was chaos. Everyone got up, helping others around, hugging each other, Thanking Allah Mian that all of us were left unharmed, after all we were all in an enclosed space. Anything could have happened, like anything!!! We ALL sure must have done at least some good in life that Allah Mian saved us *Shukar Alhamdolillah* I looked for my bag which was placed at the bookshelf behind my stall. I found it on the floor, empty. My wallet was gone with cash and bank cards etc. Most of all, we all were alive. The next thing was to leave the venue and get home straight since there was no cash with anyone to even have food.
My hearts still thumping, it was a traumatic experience. What killed me and everyone else was the feeling of being helpless. The guys were armed. Nothing is larger than life itself. Alhamdolillah, I saved my camera and phone but lost the feeling of freedom that was left in me. I’m recovering fast from the shock, because of the the other 29 people who were held hostage with me. We share a bond that none other would understand. May Allah Mian protect us all and that these muggers payback a price unimaginable. Ameen.
Thanks to Sabeen Mahmud, Rabeea Arif and Mariam Bilgrami for all their support during the 2 day event and afterwards. Love to T2f!
Previous post, I mentioned a bag, saving money for a laptop and a wish to buy a laptop. So yes. money saved. Laptop here, still juggling between the desktop AND the laptop and still not being able to let go off the desktop. First love u see
Its a good change, i’m liking it, havent tried working on photoshop yet, dont know how patient i’ll be able to be with that!! Nonethless, Allah mian meherbaan! Summer break and a new laptop. Good combo I say!
*takes a bow*
If you know me well, you’d know that I’m a hopeless Optimist. I use the term hopeless because my faith doesnt die. I’m hopeless like that! New way to look at the term hopeless … nai? I’m the one who sees good in things that are bad for most. I see ‘Behtari’. I’m optimistic about life in all. I use the term…’koi baat nai’ all the time. Most people aren’t too convinced with it. I don’t use the word [hate] but rather ‘dislike’. You just can’t hate anything/anyone. Dislike is more like it
Mr Wiki says optimism is “Hopefulness and confidence about the future or successful outcome of something; a tendency to take a favorable or hopeful view”.
I found this image online and I could relate to it SO well because I actually did something similar. I bought a backpack [laptop bag] in anticipation. Yes, I am saving up for a laptop. So the bag came in first and because of the bag only… the laptop will come soon! Inshallah!
Last year was my year of savings for a DSLR. I had been saving for over 2 years, but I had a goal, a vision towards the DSLR. My target was a camera that I used at workplace… but as soon as i had enough money for it… Canon had come up with 3 new cameras. There was a moment of ‘steadddddyyyyyyy’. I waited a couple of months more and saved up for the best DSLR available in my budget and bought it!
The same way… will get me a laptop sooner than soon. My optimism has brought me where I am today. I do get a little a demotivated at times… after all I be human. But I have precious people who bring me back!
‘Faith in God, includes faith in His timing’ – Neal A.Maxwell
So yess…Faith high, up in the sky[where the birds fly and the beautiful chaand mian resides with sparkly stars].
For whatever is bestt and behtar! Patience prevails and my question remains. Allah mian? *giggles*
This new years eve.. i didnt do anything “exciting” at all. I sat outside.. rooftopped a little while.. then was told by a dear friend that it wouldnt be safe to stay outside with flying bullets around.. so i came back in. I wasnt excited.. i had a rush of thoughts that came to my mind. Questions that needed answers. I thought to myself.. another year passed..did i achieve much? or for that matter did i achieve anything at all?
Well 2010 was very happening. With good and beautiful things came in the bad and ugly!
The year started off happy with a goal to save money. This had to be the year of savings. Work life got busy. SAARC mela.Thanking Allah mian. I admired things around me. Gave them attention. My 24th birthday was celebrated several times in the most special manner with my most special people. MJ and the flushed peace! India trip- a trip of a lifetime with the students. Delhi and Kolkatta! More travelling. Thar. Independent teaching and travelling. more responsibility. Got my own domain as a birthday present. 13AM. The rooftop became more special. Its become my escapade now. Some chinngum songs. Did a very special project for Photographics.The Summer break. Bonding. Endless chai and coffee sessions, popcorns. chairman mao. Half the year went by quick.
The 2nd half literally RAN as if it were in a race to get to the finish line…the finish line of 2010. Some friends got engaged.. some married.. some broke up. All these stories around me made me a stronger person. My faith high..Thankyou Allah mian. Someone elses happiness was bound to become my own… endless hugs. love. new friends…friends becoming close friends.. close friends becoming closer..sisterly bonds increasing. Saxaphone and the post midnight crackpottiness. My new phone. Nokia 6760. My goal- resolution for 2010 was to get myself a DSLR and i did. 2010 did turn out to be the year of savings. Alhamdolillah.
Ghazal Pirzada Creative Studios taking a new dimension for the world. Facebook page, exhibitions. Sparkles. Allah mians plan for me. My endless special prayers and continuous series of questions. good times. bad times. arguments and fights. Swallowing down anger.. trying to be a better person and succeeding as well. More people walking in and less people walking out =) Being best friends with mahnoor and enjoying mehru’s childhood. Photographing. PS and AI courses and scoring the highest! Well Yes.. lots of achievements. My first batch of students.. graduated with tears of joy! Random people praising my efforts and acknowledging me. The feeling of being blessed and praying for everyones behtari.
Its been a roller coaster ride..lots of memories to treasure for life… good and bad.
2011 came just too early. Allah mian make this year the best of years for me
and accept all those special prayers i make for them special people in my life.
Raah Pay Kante Bikhre agar, Uspay to phir bhi chalna he hai,
Shaam Chhupalay Suraj magar, Raat ko ek din Dhalna he hai,
Rut ye tal jayegi, Himmat rang layegi,
Subha phir aayegi
2011! u better be good.
Save more money. Bring the gullak to good use!
Be a better person.
Welcoming the Canon D550 in my life!
*Big Big Alhamdolillah*
So, I proudly say that hard work pays off and this time round my determination and patience towards the Camera fund! *Hats off to ME*
Allah Mian continues to be mehrbaan. With so many people praying for me and loving me… this HAD to happen. Milestone to cherish for life. Inshallah.
A special prayer for S and Buddy M for being there by my side while i bought the camera and gulped down my fasterest running heartbeat *smiles*
A dream came true… so true!
PS: its got vdo
-Lifes been a roller coaster and it has no rewind button
-Just sometimes i wish there was a rewind button
-30 years of awesomeness for Baba and Ammi *Love*
-Ada and familys ‘sumprise’ official-family visit was just great
-Mahnoor continues to not share Phupo with Mehru and remains my best friend *thumbs up*
-October was supposed to be camera month for me..but instead became camera month for S (am glad though)
-But i’m still hopeful. 2010 is the year for me. Still 2 more months to go =)
-I finally used my wiltons color gels for Saads 22nd birthday cake. Turned out great.
-Nani’s ‘special’ DUA makes me smile
-I learnt abt BMWs a little.
-Recent trips to billboard have been funny.
-Bonding with Buddy M was awesome. Needed that doze.
-Choti got a qwerty too. Thats a good chain reaction. Boo!
-Me and choti plan to walk together till we’re 60. The thought makes me smile.
-Icecream makes me happy. Chocolate chunk cookies make me happier. Anaar juice made me the Happiest =)
-Am enjoying workplace and my cubicle a LOT.
-Gotta do some serious baking soon.
-Lots of ideas.work.doodles need to be done.
-Did a very interesting ‘envelopy’ project =)
-PGCA is amaaazing.
-Working on a mini DK project. Shall share when done
-Did some doodles and proud of them.
-Adobe illustrator and Photoshop are a blessing
-Numerology is interesting
-Noori.Ali azmat.Mauj- Should be fun.
-H2H with ammi turned out great.
-Havent read a good book in 2 months.
-I washed my USB and the Ipod with my Jeans. The USB survived, the ipod didnt.
-Its just half of October gone and its seems like forever. Why is time running all of a sudden?
-Lifes tough but adventurous.. am Glad.
-Praying brings me back the faith.
PS: I LOVE starry nights.
Allah Mian is always good to us, someway or the other. He has a plan for everyone and it IS a good plan. Well yea, most of the times I am convinced. There are some parts of your life that you thoroughly enjoy, while some suck the fun out of it; some very tough and some sail by smooth. Some parts make you strong, stronger than before while some come back and worry you. Some parts of your life are like candies, they taste well and then they vanish. Some parts you never imagine them to be like the way they are while some make you the person you are.
There have been several parts of my life that made me the person that I am. I became stronger than before, more confident, independent and devoted. I became happier as a person. My faith went high. I became more n more patient. I thanked Allah mian for every little thing He gave me. Loving parents, two precious brothers, a sister-like bhabi, 2 beautiful nieces, an awesome bunch of friends, S, Choti – a sister I always wished for, a satisfying job, a running business and lots more.
There are times when I want things to happen there n then. I become impatient. I want to know whats ahead of me, but then knowing whats ahead of me will kill the fun. While there are times I become all strong only because that would be the best option and later things come back rolling pulling me back in the den.
Yesterday was just great. Other than me being tired and running around all day, what made me happy was to meet old friends, having the precious one around to help and just be there. Choti’s firefly becoming a hit (Alhamdolillah), scrutinizing a camera which will become our property soon Inshallah. Dinner with the crazy clan and chai back home.
Things are good.
But but Allah Mian, I have a question.
Whats the plan??
This year, Ramadan has been great Alhamdolillah.
Allah Mian has been Gracious as always.
Feeling content and blessed.
Most of the time has been availed praying hard.
The best of all feelings, prayers have been answered
Faith has been high, a little higher than before.
Prayers. Positive vibes. Beautiful most chand mian.
Falling ill. Random flowers.
Random love. Random possessive-ness.
Life’s Good. *blessed*
The clock struck 11:45 pm and my most fantabulous birthday started with Buddy M’s call. This year round i didnt pre-plan my day. I just wanted to play along and enjoy every moment spontaneously and i cant thank enough Allah mian for giving me such a wonderful day with a zillion little big amazing memories to cherish for a life time. Alhamdolillah! Blessed i be
M’s shaadi week started. Amidst of her dholki madness i recieved birthday wishes via call and msgs and hugs. My friends around me singing ‘jungle mein mangal teray he dam say..kisnay yeh shor machayaa hai.. salgirah ka din aaya hai..’ what fun!!!
Birthday being on a week day has its own charm, though a birthday weekend is what one wishes for. The day started absolutely well, with special heart-warming prayers form all the loving elderlies at workplace. Hugs and love from the colleagues. A huge surprise from Ammi who teamed up with my students and got cake, flowers and balloons at school. Love her for being such a loving young-at-heart kinda mom. My final year students who were my first lot whom i taught, got a cake and flowers My current students, the 2nd years got a scrumptious chocolate cake and some more flowers too! Later i got to know that they had been planning for it since friday. Sweet kids.
Tim and Zaid came to wish me at workplace, we re-lived old thesis times. Its such a great feeling to be loved by SO many people altogether. Never felt the same before. The day went by busy with work and chaos. The most special 10 mins were spent with choti at the end of the day. Made a surprise visit to nani’s, she was happy beyond limits
Later at home, Bhai and Ayezu came for a surprise visit which i actually ruined (unintentionally). I reached home and saw Bhai waiting for Ayezu at the gate *cuties*. Cut the cake with them. The cake read ‘Happy Birthday Api’. Buddy M made a special appearance later at night! All in all, It was a great great birthday to treasure for life. 4 cakes on the 24th A special celebration with C and S followed the next day!
Got a call from Mahnoor, cutie. Waiting for the card she made for me.
They say that its hard to find people who love you, care for you. I musst say am truly blessed to have SO many people loving me. Alhamdolillah! Thanks to everyone who made my 24th very special!!
Special thanx to Ammi, Baba, Ada, Mayg api, Mahnoor, Saad, Mate, Shammy, Choti, The Twins, buddy m, Hero, Bhaiyyu, Buddy M, Ayezu, Eefa and everyone who called and made my day! Love.
-At the moment, nothing makes sense.
-Life is busy and hectic and tiring but good.
-I’ve pulled an all nighter lately, where I’ve found myself snuggled in my blanket thinking about ALL the wonderful things in life that I’ve achieved and yet HAVE to achieve.
-Too many ideas, very little time.
-Life’s short, doodle it.
-Am finding only that little of time and my brain to read just a chapter a day from this book I’m reading these days.
-My phone has almost 2000 msgs in the inbox.
-AD and Shammy are crazy.
-January 2010 – I baked 3 times and doodled on the cakes/cupcakes
-Party 2009 will surely be alive forever. Thanx Moh! U made my day!
-I climb 8 floors of my apartment building atleast once, everyday. (read: once at the least)
-I’ve started to like my hair in form of a braid.
-I’m trying to have loads of water
-My fairy lights switched ON give my room the perfect mood needed to ‘think’
-I’ve been made to listen to alternative rock and I happily say, I love the genre *kabhi kabhi*
-Passport sized photographs- I dislike!
-I don’t use the word ‘Hate’. I say it’s a strong word to use.
-I will never say NO to Mr Burger bonding.
-My 4 year old niece cried before leaving for dxb, because she wanted me to go with her. It bought tears to my eyes too. Love you Mahnoor *hugs*
-Full moons, they’re beautiful but they make me sad.
-Workplace is full of entertainment these days. Good fun. Works best!
-I have 11 unseen movies sitting in front of me and staring in my face
-Peri bites are YUM!
-Flowers and balloons make me happy, like REALLY happy.
-Hopefully from April I’ll start working on ‘Operation Duck Tape’
-I realize it’s the ‘small’ things in life that make up for a crappy day.
-I promised myself, I will NOT visit any DSLR related websites till I have the money to buy one.
-We’re thousands of miles apart but we share the stars every night.
-I like real smiley faces =)
So yea..Its flashback time, a little*just a little* late but yea… for the record.
The Year 2009, the year when life changed for the better, bigger experiences came in, a lot of laughter and happiness revailed, new members in the family were inducted, new friends were made for life, bonding sessions that meant the most and will last forever =)
Looking back, it all started great Alhamdolillah. I was soooo looking forward to 2009 with faith high, up in the sky. Saad started FY at Indus and with it my 2nd year at work started, Abida Parveen- Live in concert, largest event at Indus organized, 23rd birthday, first International trip as faculty to ‘Thailand’ with my best friends as students, early april Dadi passed away, Basant happened at school and later came an opportunity to manage a band, joined [NO IDEA] as manager for 6 months, New friends came into being; Boo, AD and Amy, Choti’s birthday happened which was magical for her =)
Pakistan sign language(PSL) certification, lots of cake treats and bonding sessions, Sidrah got married, doodling came into existence for me, roof-topping, chocolates, more photography, one on one with Allah Mian, admiring the sunsets more, starry nights and casanova Mr Chand Mian, voice of the dying horse… trips back home, gullak money, birthdays made special, hero-Buddy M-Best friend, my junior lot-best friends-hero and buddy M gang graduated, -‘Dost’- happened, I became Phupo once again to a beautiful niece ‘Mehr Fatima’, also became Khala to my handsome nephew ‘Raaif’, Bibi passed away(no more dua wali candies) but lots of prayers remained, Maria got nikahofied, heart to heart sessions, photography competitions, barbies, Alumni show, found my ‘Real Unbiological Sister’ this year, prayed more, hopes were high, faith was higher, ended with a full moon and a happy person photo shoot with chotaaay.
All in all, a fantastic-happening-happy-year, Welcoming the new year with open arms with prayers and faith n patience to cope up with all the tough times life has to offer and cherish all the good times for years to come. Inshallah. Ameen.
Happy 2010 folks!
-be a better person
-get DSLR =)
Last Night was quiet, quiet to an extent; I could hear the clock tick at every second, the winds wheezing through the window, my niece breathing and my heart pounding. Insomnia took over, the brain was racing fast, faster than the usual, my thoughts were flying and attacking the brain as if there was a meteor shower.
At times indulging in some ‘me time’ gives you a different perspective towards life. You give yourself that time to look ahead of you and decide as to how things should be, or how you would want them to be, and then say a little prayer and feel a shiver down the spine and you know that Allah Mian is listening, that feeling of being heard prevails (great feeling no?)
Somehow, the feeling of being content with life doesnt leave me (yeah yeah, i know thats a good feeling, alhamdolillah for that) but i keep wondering how is it that it doesnt? is it prayers? or patience? or faith? or is it just the way i am, hehe All i can do is try to keep up with all the prayers and patience and faith in Allah Mian and go on with life as it comes…come whatever may…for the better. For the best. As Allah Mian knows.
Bring it on! ;]
Aaj kal zindagi, mujhsey hai keh rahi…
raat dhalni toh hai..aanay ujalay toh hain..
Tomorrow… the future, the days that are yet to come, about which no one knows. We don’t know whats ahead of us, sometimes we predict, sometimes we assume, but whats written IS the tomorrow that we’ll see.
How about Allah Mian shows us the tomorrow… the tomorrow thats yet to come…
Inshallah for the better, for the best, without regrets
*content and satisfied and sleepless*
I admit…I am patient, very patient
I admit I need to learn a few (more) things in life and I am learning, its just that its taking a little while…
I admit I love my friends, my people and would do anything for them…
I do things without thinking of what it will give me in return… be it doing things for people around me… or otherwise..
I admit I don’t do things for a reason; there is no reason for me to be there for someone…just that I’d want to be there for them…
I admit I will never confess if I have feelings for someone…I’d be scared to loose the friend in them
I’d wait for things to happen my way with whatever is best for me that has already been written
I admit I don’t like to fight; hence there are no regrets…
I just wish that no one has any regrets in life… simply because they hurt…
I admit YET AGAIN that I love stars and the moon… they make me happy… really happy…the rooftop is a blessing
I also admit that relationships mean A LOT to me sooo getting married would be a beautiful thing to happen
I admit, my faith is high, up in the sky
I strongly believe in whatever happens happens for a reason; be it good or bad…there is always a reason…
I admit I have a new chingum song I relate to so well… it is called ‘ooncha’ by noori
I admit life seems good at the moment, wish for it to be better tomorrow…
I admit moving on is the most difficult thing to do, but once you do you will definitely feel a huge burden off you, life will be clearer, you’ll see behtari in whatever happened.
I admit I think too much, but that’s the kind of freedom I have, the freedom to think…
I admit i cant sit idle to save my life…
I admit I have a list of things I want and I have a feeling I will get ‘em when the time is right…Inshallah!
Today…I woke up with an amazingly weird EMPTY feeling. No dreams and a very disturbed sleep, I woke up after every 2 hours or so… I felt I had something in mind but couldn’t figure out what… was it a feeling of satisfaction or was it something weird coming my way…
What I keep pondering over these days is that was yesterday better? Or will tomorrow be?
Alhamdolillah for faith and the feeling of being content.
My box of patience increases day by day, life seems better as i write my feelings down.
Leaving the past behind, Living today and waiting to welcome the tomorrow that Allah mian has written for me. It will have to be better than yesterday and today…
C’mon Allah mian… Am ready… yet again…
Aaanay do…aur jeenay do…
At times, being content kills you. Its a beautiful feeling most of the time BUT at times it kills you, frustrates you, bothers you and *hurts* you.
Does keeping your faith high over things will take to your destination or prayers will or working hard over it will or just leave it to Allah mian and wait or WHAT?
I realize a lot of things… i realize high hopes *hurt*
they’ve hurt in the past and they hurt now too… i dont learn..
I realize… *sigh*
Though am reallly Happy to be on the giving end Most of the time, BUT its an absolutely amazing feeling to be on the receiving end once in a while =)
*The word not to be worded; is worded*
I sayyy… Life is Good… after all my faith is high, UP in the sky; Where the beautiful Mr Chand Khan resides
Thank You Allah Mian *sigh*
The power i call ‘Allah Mian’.
There are days when i pray and i get goosebumps because i know there are things that sound unrealistic yet i pray for them knowing that atleast allah mian is listening. I feel connected praying and asking for things i dont have, my friends ask me to pray for and the BEST part is that when i see the reward of my prayers right in front of me.
I pray for a certain thing for a friend and receive a msg saying, its done. Gives me such a wonderful feeling of being content, satisfied and happy.
Allah mian, with this note, i thank you for being there always.
Am keeping up with the prayers, you keep up with the rewards. Make things happen; for the better.
After sooooo many days genuinely i am *happy and satisfied*. I really had a strong feeling that the ‘car’ will happen today. Am sooo glad it did. Yay!!! Mazzaaay!!!
Happy Ramadan everyone. Keep the prayers rolling
Allah Mian hears me out and i get what i ask for. Alhamdolillah such a great feeling… everything falls into place.
Last night, although i was freakishly sleepy since was up for more than 24 hours for the record, I had to spend sometime outside at the rooftop, admire my stars and Thank Allah Mian for the blessings. I was sleepy but couldn’t sleep, I *sigh* and wonder where all the stars and chaand khan are, here comes an aich em aich saying the same. I was so glad S noticed the same, i promised that i’d be in bed in another 15 minutes, the sky was red, absolutely beautiful cloud cover, no chaaand khan to be scene and no stars.
I wish for stars to show up, i love stars *sigh* and to my surprise i see a no cloud patch appearing and one star sparkles at me. Blessed i be!
The clock strikes 1, 15 minutes are over, i keep my promise and hit bed. lied down for another hour or so till a dreamless night look over.
Ps: did i say i love stars??
I wonder why most of my posts are work related, maybe because am enjoying myself at work and i observe and learn with each event that takes place. 15 months and going…I’ve learnt something new on each step. Be it patience, how to handle cranky situations, helping others out or be it organizing events and learning a lot more from them.
Recently we had Abida Parveen perform at IVS mentioned in my post earlier. The day we started publicizing about the event. There came FB messages, posts, sms’s, Calls and definite physical appearances regarding information regarding the event.
A week before the event, i reach school and i see a junior who says, there is someone who has emailed me and wants an autograph signed by Abida Parveen. I was in a rush so i told him that yeah fine, we’ll look into it, and will talk to him later about it. 10 minutes later, another student tells me the same story, and i tell her the same. Catch you later. Later in the day, our Executive Director calls me, and says that this child has emailed her, and now i am furious that who is this child? Then i tell all of them to fwd the email to me and i’ll look into it.
In other few hours i receive an email from Arnab (the same boy everybody received an email from). I read the email and sadness struck me. He’s 13 years old and a blood cancer patient. He is under treatment and can not enjoy his life like other kids his age. He is a die hard fan of Abida Parveen, Mehdi hassan and Ghulam ali, he writes. His email humbly requests an autograph signed by the living maestro Abida Parveen.
3 days later, Abida Parveen hits K-town and i go to meet her and talk about the details of the event and stuff. During the meeting i tell her about Arnab, and after listening to me, the expressions on her face go blank. The same way i reacted after reading the email. She signs an autograph for him, and we say our Good byes.
The event goes great, I emailed Arnab saying that I was able to get an autograph signed for him and he says we should not scan it and email but rather send it by post and he says, ‘i hope it reaches me on time, so I can feel her autograph, smell it and adore it close to my heart.’
Now comes the toughest time, the autograph has been posted and till he receives it. We are hanging here and there. After 3 weeks i receive a heart warming email from arnab saying that he got the post!
It made me sooooo happy and content. Have never been so happy with myself. It seemed as if a huge burden was off me. I don’t think i have done anything better than this in my life. Read arnab’s email and felt a thunder pass by me. Alhamdolillah! Thank you allah for giving me the sources to get this done. Hope it does good to the kid. Good Luck Arnab.
With this Event i learnt that there is so much more to life than we usually think of it as. Making new friends (Arnab and BB) and knowing about their lives has been great. Keep ‘em coming Allah mian!