Baarish 2011
Finally, karachi saw a little of the rain. Veryyyy little but it brought the mitti ki khushbu that one longs for. the pressure built up, humidity… and eventually it poured leaving me in awe after i saw the beautiful sky. Amidst the greys appeared a streak of orange.. What a beauty! SubhanAllah. The after effects left me happy, with winds blowing.
Thankyou Allah Mian 
The hopeless Optimist!
If you know me well, you’d know that I’m a hopeless Optimist. I use the term hopeless because my faith doesnt die. I’m hopeless like that! 
New way to look at the term hopeless … nai? I’m the one who sees good in things that are bad for most. I see ‘Behtari’. I’m optimistic about life in all. I use the term…’koi baat nai’ all the time. Most people aren’t too convinced with it. I don’t use the word [hate] but rather ‘dislike’. You just can’t hate anything/anyone. Dislike is more like it
Mr Wiki says optimism is “Hopefulness and confidence about the future or successful outcome of something; a tendency to take a favorable or hopeful view”.
I found this image online and I could relate to it SO well because I actually did something similar. I bought a backpack [laptop bag] in anticipation. Yes, I am saving up for a laptop. So the bag came in first and because of the bag only… the laptop will come soon! Inshallah!
Last year was my year of savings for a DSLR. I had been saving for over 2 years, but I had a goal, a vision towards the DSLR. My target was a camera that I used at workplace… but as soon as i had enough money for it… Canon had come up with 3 new cameras. There was a moment of ‘steadddddyyyyyyy’. I waited a couple of months more and saved up for the best DSLR available in my budget and bought it!
The same way… will get me a laptop sooner than soon. My optimism has brought me where I am today. I do get a little a demotivated at times… after all I be human. But I have precious people who bring me back!
‘Faith in God, includes faith in His timing’ – Neal A.Maxwell
So yess…Faith high, up in the sky[where the birds fly and the beautiful chaand mian resides with sparkly stars].
For whatever is bestt and behtar! Patience prevails and my question remains. Allah mian? *giggles*
Indulgence
Just last night i indulged myself in some ME time. I’d say though i have some time off from school aka a winter break i havent really given time to myself, my thoughts… in other words the much required ‘me time’. So i stepped outside.. the cold winds.. the traffic.. the darkness..My Chand mian… the stars.. everything was the same..the rooftop seemed lonely.. I hadnt really spent time there. I climbed the real rooftop(yes i am very daring that way) sat there for an hour or so..hummed a few songs..chilled.
I kept thinking..whts this life all about? Why am i working so hard.. that i’m not being able to give time to myself. Not that i’m complaining but just thinking aloud. Later i sat on the jhoola.. swinging.. back and forth.. back and forth..I clicked a few pictures. Enjoyed holding my OWN camera. Its a feeling only I know…the sense of achievement Alhamdolillah!
Thanking Allah Mian at every step of life. Creating new stuff..Life’s good.
Looking forward to the new year.. new beginnings.. new goals.. new deadlines.
but but.. Allah Mian.. Whats the plan? 
Hello December!
So i feel that time flew this year on because it went by great(well yeah mosst of it) and i am very very thankful for it! Alhamdolillah
-I miss Ada very much. He’s been crazy busy with work and we hardly get to talk. But ada.. u musst know that i’m praying for you all the time.
-I did conquer the world when i bought the long awaited Canon D550. Thoroughly enjoying it but its been crazy otherwise that i still havent explored it inside out.. but will do soon.
-Winter break coming up! weeeeeeeehoo!!!
-3 years at workplace will be complete as soon as semester ends. Inshallah.
-My first batch of students-friends-juniors graduate in a weeks time
-This convocation will be very special, Munim and sheeraz graduate! *blessed*
-I love winters because u can cozy up though i get the coldest fingers and toes *dangerous*
-Need to do some serious sockies shopping
-Celebrated Mehr’s 1st birthday. It was an awesome idea for Mayg api and the kids to drop by. Missed Ada like crazy.
-Mahnoor and I continue being the best of friends
- Lifes on a roll and i’m loving every bit of it.
-Nani is doing a lot better. Alhamdolillah.
-Baba ammi visiting makes our home complete.
-The ‘achi choti cheez’ bought in lots of laughter
-Alumni show coming up in a week!
-Ghazal Pirzada Creative Studios has 436 fans as of today. Its a great feeling, random people appreciating your work, ordering and coming back with a bunch of happy stories. BIG alhamdolillah
-Illustrator and Photoshop courses ended yesterday. Great learning. Need lots of practice =)
-Friends have been close where random acquaintances became friends.
-Choti has a printmaking minor and its been long since we had a balcony session. Feels like a part of me is missing.
-Ayezu got married a few days back. Mashallah she made a gorgeous bride.
-Its a great feeling when friends randomly msg saying i made their day. Its a happy feeling.
-I am soooo thankful for these special people around me..they make my life complete.
Allah Mian, I am still curious about the plan. With the year almost coming to an end.. Am all ready and heads on for 2011! Inshallah.
But but.. Whats the plann?? =D
13112010 – 550D
Welcoming the Canon D550 in my life!
*Big Big Alhamdolillah*
So, I proudly say that hard work pays off and this time round my determination and patience towards the Camera fund! *Hats off to ME*
Allah Mian continues to be mehrbaan. With so many people praying for me and loving me… this HAD to happen. Milestone to cherish for life. Inshallah.
A special prayer for S and Buddy M for being there by my side while i bought the camera and gulped down my fasterest running heartbeat *smiles*
A dream came true… so true!
Wheeeeeeeeeeee.eeeeeeeeeeeeee
PS: its got vdo
Halfway October..
-Lifes been a roller coaster and it has no rewind button
-Just sometimes i wish there was a rewind button
-30 years of awesomeness for Baba and Ammi *Love*
-Ada and familys ‘sumprise’ official-family visit was just great
-Mahnoor continues to not share Phupo with Mehru and remains my best friend *thumbs up*
-October was supposed to be camera month for me..but instead became camera month for S (am glad though)
-But i’m still hopeful. 2010 is the year for me. Still 2 more months to go =)
-I finally used my wiltons color gels for Saads 22nd birthday cake. Turned out great.
-Nani’s ‘special’ DUA makes me smile
-I learnt abt BMWs a little.
-Recent trips to billboard have been funny.
-Bonding with Buddy M was awesome. Needed that doze.
-Choti got a qwerty too. Thats a good chain reaction. Boo!
-Me and choti plan to walk together till we’re 60. The thought makes me smile.
-Icecream makes me happy. Chocolate chunk cookies make me happier. Anaar juice made me the Happiest =)
-Am enjoying workplace and my cubicle a LOT.
-Gotta do some serious baking soon.
-Lots of ideas.work.doodles need to be done.
-Did a very interesting ‘envelopy’ project =)
-PGCA is amaaazing.
-Working on a mini DK project. Shall share when done
-Did some doodles and proud of them.
-Adobe illustrator and Photoshop are a blessing
-Numerology is interesting
-Noori.Ali azmat.Mauj- Should be fun.
-H2H with ammi turned out great.
-Havent read a good book in 2 months.
-I washed my USB and the Ipod with my Jeans. The USB survived, the ipod didnt.
-Its just half of October gone and its seems like forever. Why is time running all of a sudden?
-Lifes tough but adventurous.. am Glad.
-Praying brings me back the faith.
*Blessed* =)
PS: I LOVE starry nights.
Allah Mian, Whats the plan?
Allah Mian is always good to us, someway or the other. He has a plan for everyone and it IS a good plan. Well yea, most of the times I am convinced. There are some parts of your life that you thoroughly enjoy, while some suck the fun out of it; some very tough and some sail by smooth. Some parts make you strong, stronger than before while some come back and worry you. Some parts of your life are like candies, they taste well and then they vanish. Some parts you never imagine them to be like the way they are while some make you the person you are.
There have been several parts of my life that made me the person that I am. I became stronger than before, more confident, independent and devoted. I became happier as a person. My faith went high. I became more n more patient. I thanked Allah mian for every little thing He gave me. Loving parents, two precious brothers, a sister-like bhabi, 2 beautiful nieces, an awesome bunch of friends, S, Choti – a sister I always wished for, a satisfying job, a running business and lots more.
There are times when I want things to happen there n then. I become impatient. I want to know whats ahead of me, but then knowing whats ahead of me will kill the fun. While there are times I become all strong only because that would be the best option and later things come back rolling pulling me back in the den.
Yesterday was just great. Other than me being tired and running around all day, what made me happy was to meet old friends, having the precious one around to help and just be there. Choti’s firefly becoming a hit (Alhamdolillah), scrutinizing a camera which will become our property soon Inshallah. Dinner with the crazy clan and chai back home.
Things are good.
But but Allah Mian, I have a question.
Whats the plan??
The summer breeze =)
The meaning of a true sunday came back for me today. I dont even recall the last time i had a real sunday. Life’s been super busy lately and thats how i like it to be but you know.. at times.. one needs a break. There is a life update pending but at the moment am tooo mesmerized but the very beautiful evening i experienced.
The clouds were at a high today. All fluffy, happy and runny yet they curled up together with one another giving away these happy positive vibes that i caught on to. I missed not having my camera the mossst today (camera amazing stories shall roll later) but i guess what my eyes beheld from today, only 20 percent of the same would have been captured by the man-made instrument aka the camera.
I knew that the sunset would be a beauty today, so i prayed maghrib as soon as i heard the azaan and ran off to the rooftop. And not so much of a surprise, the sunset was just amazing. The fluffs remained grey for a while and the sky at the back turning chrome yellow. Slowly steadily it turned around to be orange and the fluffs absorbed the streaks of pink.. The rest of the sky went dark and the traffic signal lights and the cars rushing by had more meaning by becoming visible. I sat at the top ledge of the rooftop, my legs hanging in midair, winds rushing through my hair (how i love my short hair for that).
Took my doodle diary with me in the hope that i would write something down or probably sketch something out but what i felt couldnt be penned down hence i let the doodle diary be and indulged in some free thinking enjoying the cool summer breeze.
Welcoming the summers, alhamdolillah.
Dear life, I am back
Ps: A sunday should be a sunday for loadshedding!
HIGH at the rooftop!
This month has been crazzyy hectic and so is the prediction for March 2010! What makes me the happiest is spending time at my rooftop after crazy hours of work. A hot cup of tea-music-photography!
Heres a special treat to the eye!
Enjoy!!!
Happy 2010!
So yea..Its flashback time, a little*just a little* late but yea… for the record.
The Year 2009, the year when life changed for the better, bigger experiences came in, a lot of laughter and happiness revailed, new members in the family were inducted, new friends were made for life, bonding sessions that meant the most and will last forever =)
Looking back, it all started great Alhamdolillah. I was soooo looking forward to 2009 with faith high, up in the sky. Saad started FY at Indus and with it my 2nd year at work started, Abida Parveen- Live in concert, largest event at Indus organized, 23rd birthday, first International trip as faculty to ‘Thailand’ with my best friends as students, early april Dadi passed away, Basant happened at school and later came an opportunity to manage a band, joined [NO IDEA] as manager for 6 months, New friends came into being; Boo, AD and Amy, Choti’s birthday happened which was magical for her =)
Pakistan sign language(PSL) certification, lots of cake treats and bonding sessions, Sidrah got married, doodling came into existence for me, roof-topping, chocolates, more photography, one on one with Allah Mian, admiring the sunsets more, starry nights and casanova Mr Chand Mian, voice of the dying horse… trips back home, gullak money, birthdays made special, hero-Buddy M-Best friend, my junior lot-best friends-hero and buddy M gang graduated, -‘Dost’- happened, I became Phupo once again to a beautiful niece ‘Mehr Fatima’, also became Khala to my handsome nephew ‘Raaif’, Bibi passed away(no more dua wali candies) but lots of prayers remained, Maria got nikahofied, heart to heart sessions, photography competitions, barbies, Alumni show, found my ‘Real Unbiological Sister’ this year, prayed more, hopes were high, faith was higher, ended with a full moon and a happy person photo shoot with chotaaay.
All in all, a fantastic-happening-happy-year, Welcoming the new year with open arms with prayers and faith n patience to cope up with all the tough times life has to offer and cherish all the good times for years to come. Inshallah. Ameen.
Happy 2010 folks!
=)
Resolution 2010:
-be a better person
-get DSLR =)
*lonely…quiet…*
Lately, my sleep is gone to wonderland, leaving me ‘not-s0-sleepy’ most of the time. Well this isnt that great becaaaaause routine goes haywire and that leads to a lot of other issues BUT on the other hand these sleepless nights give me time to think, re-think, doodle AND click.
So last night, i just couldnt sleep. My window gives me the most beautiful view, 2am, the city sleeps, i overlook the bridge that flies over the clifton bridge. Its quiet, the moon shines, the stars smile sparkle, I walk out to the rooftop with my camera…
..it was windy.. quiet… lonely…i loved my camera for giving me company.. on a lonely quiet night…
*sigh*
*being there…*
“True friendship isn’t about being there when it’s convenient; it’s about being there when it’s not.”
What is -being there- all about? Being there for someone when they need you? How do u know they need you? Why would you be there for them?Damn, Thats just too many questions :$
For me, its ALL about ‘being there’ for my people, my friends.
Be it just being there to hear ‘em out or be it exchanging chocolates(Twix-hersheys) or be it by sharing an OWL mode night or be it to help over a deadly submission or just be there to hear them scream over how crappy life is and things are just not going to happen. Being there also means to provide a shoulder to cry on or even giving a faithful boost. Be it messaging a menu for a zillion kinds of kabab rolls so that you could order food before you collapse after a hectic-crazy-sleepless-crack.potty-mode! Its all about being there for your people.
Its ALSO about being there to make people happy, be there for them when they most need you physically or mentally, or emotionally or message-ly. How just one message on your cellphone could make your day just because a friend has been there for you. Being there in times of despair, sickness. Being there to make them tea as they want it to be. Being there when they have mood swings(bad ones). Be there to cheer ‘em up and bring them back their Faith! Being there to remind them about how beautiful this life is and maybe a little patience would make things seem better. Be there to pray for them, their life, their sifarish*, their betterment. Be there to wake them up so that they don’t get late for their morning routine. Compromise on things and be there…
Sigh.. just be there…
Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
*beachness*
I was craving to go to the beach since so long, just to go and relax, bond with Allah Mian and do some photography. Finally an iftar plan was made with the right kind of people for a crazy beach trip.
waves. the sky. fasts. long long drive to the hut. the yellow and greens. food. the wait. scrabble. music on the mac. pebbles. old songs. jokes via sms. the walk to the sea. crabs. clicks. prayers. sunset. Food. scrumptious successful cake. tea. cards. beautiful starry night. the ride back home.
All in all, a great day- 11092009.
Alhamdolillah!
ps: i Luv it when my feet wrinkle after being soaked in water for long
*realization 28082009*
The feeling of prayers being answered is Divine, goosebumpy and heartpoundy.
ps: Allah mian is listening but he’s prioritizing my prayers.
pss: The sweetest thing i’ve been told ever is ‘first things first, right now is your turn. I can wait’
=D
*blessed*
*Allah Mian*
The power i call ‘Allah Mian’.
There are days when i pray and i get goosebumps because i know there are things that sound unrealistic yet i pray for them knowing that atleast allah mian is listening. I feel connected praying and asking for things i dont have, my friends ask me to pray for and the BEST part is that when i see the reward of my prayers right in front of me.
I pray for a certain thing for a friend and receive a msg saying, its done. Gives me such a wonderful feeling of being content, satisfied and happy.
Allah mian, with this note, i thank you for being there always.
Am keeping up with the prayers, you keep up with the rewards. Make things happen; for the better.
After sooooo many days genuinely i am *happy and satisfied*. I really had a strong feeling that the ‘car’ will happen today. Am sooo glad it did. Yay!!! Mazzaaay!!!
Happy Ramadan everyone. Keep the prayers rolling
~RED~
As I sit and think
over reasons unknown
and the flowers blossom
in a distant meadow
The eagle soars hi
and the sheep count their breath
the lion hunts his prey
with a tear on his face
(chorus)
and the fairies dance
among stars so distant
while the faces on the glass
misguide us every instance
the troops barge in
as the missles soar skies
the deafening thunder of man machines
men in suits and their lies
but still children play
with a smile across their face
there is hope in oblivion
as my mother’s body decays
(chorus)
and the fairies dance
among stars so distant
while the faces on the glass
misguide us every instance
the mind is disgruntled
and thy knees become weak
a lifetime of flashbacks
with no winning streak
I trusted words I heard
never read a letter after
for each word still breaks me
as each promise shattered
(chorus)
and the fairies dance
among stars so distant
while the faces on the glass
misguide us every instance
Courtesy: Shamail Wasi
Ps: Not everyone can carry red shoes
*…of orchids and butterflies*
This is a dead butterfly,crisp and beautiful. One of My students had this butterfly as their source of inspiration for a tie dyed dupatta. Wonderful Colors and patterns.
What amazing things nature brings to us. I remember from my recent trip to Thailand, We made a trip to the butterfly and orchid garden in Chiang Mai. This place had a variety of orchids set in a plantation like surrounding where the butterflies flew around freely, and they were fed pineapples. It was heavenly.
…bring me back.. THAT!
Oh, i love rains. We’ve been longing for a rain shower now. Alhamdolillah, He heard us all yet again. Awesome weather till now.
Trees fresh, smiling happily. The crows and pigeons all drenched with rain water. Puddles of water on the streets where kids splash. Halwa puri. Elevator stopped working. Songs that are meant to be heard in this weather are up aloud. Pakoray and harri chattni. Missing ammi while she has a blast in Ahmedabad, India.
What joy this rains brings to everyone, the greens look fresher and the sky shines. Missing the gang.
*Blessed*
=)
Basant 2009
This year the Basant happened a little later than usual. Hard work was put in but last minute blunders went by, but the entire charm of organizing an event is to handle it both ways. In the end it was a gr8 effort put in by the Students Council ’09. Great work team.
My grandmother passed away 3 days before the event, quick trip to sukkur and back the same day of the event. The band called [NO IDEA] performed, that was the highlight of the event
SC’09, security guards, the gate, sawera guy, sound guy, Too many cranky stall aunties, Hassan(the band and i will never forget him), gate duties, friends, mate, the excited foundies, bhai all by my side always, ayezu’s hug, buddy m,hero and best friend always there for me, the jhoolay wala, BB, the heat, my tan, crazy headaches, lack of sleep, sound checks, the repeated “bus pohach raha hai dj”, [NO IDEA], new friends, amy-adeel duo, Shammy the drummer, kami, BOSS and the quiet khurram. All in all, an event to remember as always.
