CHEERS to the best of rooftopping sessions, chai, coffee, popcorns, mars upclose, voice of the dying horse, quaack quaaaacks, baatien, baatien and more baatien, jootay, jurmana’s, T-words, S-words, paali baby moments, the various countless memorable moments and the best friend in you i’ve found =)

Cheers to all the good times 2009 brought us to cherish for life and a huge BRING IT ON to the year 2010.

Heres to wishing you a wonderful ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY’ and an amazing year ahead. May it all work out for you, for the better and the best. Ameen.

Lots of prayers your way and GP’s Special *jkj*
=)

So yea..Its flashback time, a little*just a little* late but yea… for the record.

The Year 2009, the year when life changed for the better, bigger experiences came in, a lot of laughter and happiness revailed, new members in the family were inducted, new friends were made for life, bonding sessions that meant the most and will last forever =)

Looking back, it all started great Alhamdolillah. I was soooo looking forward to 2009 with faith high, up in the sky. Saad started FY at Indus and with it my 2nd year at work started, Abida Parveen- Live in concert, largest event at Indus organized, 23rd birthday, first International trip as faculty to ‘Thailand’ with my best friends as students, early april Dadi passed away, Basant happened at school and later came an opportunity to manage a band, joined [NO IDEA] as manager for 6 months, New friends came into being; Boo, AD and Amy, Choti’s birthday happened which was magical for her =)

Pakistan sign language(PSL) certification, lots of cake treats and bonding sessions, Sidrah got married, doodling came into existence for me, roof-topping, chocolates, more photography, one on one with Allah Mian, admiring the sunsets more, starry nights and casanova Mr Chand Mian, voice of the dying horse… trips back home, gullak money, birthdays made special, hero-Buddy M-Best friend, my junior lot-best friends-hero and buddy M gang graduated, -‘Dost’- happened, I became Phupo once again to a beautiful niece ‘Mehr Fatima’, also became Khala to my handsome nephew ‘Raaif’, Bibi passed away(no more dua wali candies) but lots of prayers remained, Maria got nikahofied, heart to heart sessions, photography competitions, barbies, Alumni show, found my ‘Real Unbiological Sister’ this year, prayed more, hopes were high, faith was higher, ended with a full moon and a happy person photo shoot with chotaaay.

All in all, a fantastic-happening-happy-year, Welcoming the new year with open arms with prayers and faith n patience to cope up with all the tough times life has to offer and cherish all the good times for years to come. Inshallah. Ameen.

Happy 2010 folks!
=)

Resolution 2010:
-be a better person
-get DSLR =)

Last Night was quiet, quiet to an extent; I could hear the clock tick at every second, the winds wheezing through the window, my niece breathing and my heart pounding. Insomnia took over, the brain was racing fast, faster than the usual, my thoughts were flying and attacking the brain as if there was a meteor shower.

At times indulging in some ‘me time’ gives you a different perspective towards life. You give yourself that time to look ahead of you and decide as to how things should be, or how you would want them to be, and then say a little prayer and feel a shiver down the spine and you know that Allah Mian is listening, that feeling of being heard prevails (great feeling no?)

Somehow, the feeling of being content with life doesnt leave me (yeah yeah, i know thats a good feeling, alhamdolillah for that) but i keep wondering how is it that it doesnt? is it prayers? or patience? or faith? or is it just the way i am, hehe All i can do is try to keep up with all the prayers and patience and faith in Allah Mian and go on with life as it comes…come whatever may…for the better. For the best. As Allah Mian knows.

Bring it on! ;]

Aaj kal zindagi, mujhsey hai keh rahi…
raat dhalni toh hai..aanay ujalay toh hain..

Starry nights back home in khi gimme the best feeling BUT starry nights in sukkur are fantabulous!!! No two ways about it..the prussian sky gives the stars the freedom to shine clear!
Alhamdolillah!

=)

the pink fluffs…
the birds clutter the sky
the orange sphere prepares to leave
changing hues
from orange to red to pink and gone…
the pink fluffs turn to orange and peach and dark
while the jet leaves a fluffy trail
across the skyline
with every setting sun
my heart deepens, darkens, saddens…
but
what brings me back
is the hope
for a better tomorrow.

I fell in love… with a moment
i smiled; not the real one =]
but i fell in love with a dream;
the dream I dreamed

*sigh*

Today the sun settled happy and bright with neon streaks of orange across the sky. At first it gave me a high, I was happy, very happy, and I believed I could fly. Later a cloud of blues took over me; I let myself into the quietness of my surroundings which led me getting into the ‘silent-ninja-mode’ as me and a dear friend state it to be.

The electricity went out and so did I; I meant I stepped out to take a walk. For the first time, my rooftop gave me shivers, it was dark, the bridge had a few cars rush by, I felt alone, I felt left out, and I felt as if no one cared. It was quiet and cold.

I sat there staring at the corner where I’ve had the best rooftops sessions, where I’ve cried, where I’ve bonded with Allah Mian under the sky staring at the stars, where I’ve witnessed birds fly their way home and felt beautiful, where I’ve laughed, where me and Choti have discussed life and had sisterly conversations, where me and S have had countless sessions over ‘anything’ that has come our way, where me and friends have gossiped, where Ammi and I have had mother-daughter talks, where I’ve clicked at 2am just because I couldn’t sleep, where I’ve spent a lot of my time pondering over life.

I felt empty.

I realized life moves on, things aren’t meant to remain the same forever. I guess it would get boring and monotonous if it was to remain the same. I realized I treasured ALL of the above. My thoughts reflected over how important these people are in my life, how important the ‘rooftop sessions’ are to me.

I felt a little better but the quietness prevailed….

-In the past 2 weeks I became phupo to my very beautiful neice MEHR and khala to my very handsome nephew RAAIF
-The past one month went by real fast
-Yet another year passed, I finished 2 years at workplace and my junior lot, the gang, My best friends graduated
-I made a trip to the Clifton beach recently and it left me speechless, I was lost in my thoughts, but that IS what the beach does to me
-Every time I see the sun set, it gives me a feeling of hope. A hope for a better tomorrow.
-I feel now is the time, where my life should take a 360 degree turn, for the better, for the best
-I’ve been thinking about how one makes mistakes and yet doesn’t learn
-I now feel that mistakes aren’t anything negative but they are a step towards learning
-People ask me this much often, ‘how do u see positive in things that imply negativity’, At times I ask myself the same
-My ‘gullak money’ is going great so far
-I still wish to wake up in a room full of balloons
-Buddy M and Hero have been my saviors and am so glad I was able to be there for them =>
-People vouch for being patient but they don’t follow
-There are just a few, not even a handful of people I’d say who care, but I guess that’s how life is…
-Choti is my real unbiological sister and at times it freaks us out how well it all fits
-I was asked to watch ‘500 days of summer’ and was told that ‘it’s a very ‘you’ kinda movie’. I agree!
-Am awaiting a kitkat rooftop session
-Choti and I bond over iced mirinda and it has to be my treat =)
-Workplace will be very very different from Jan 4th 2010 onwards and December 2010 will be very very rewarding (Inshallah)
-I love winters, because I can cuddle in my blanket and Think myself to sleep
-My coffee making skills are getting better by the day =)
-I’ll keep bugging u to have ‘badaam’ only because I care
-Every end is a new beginning, I say YES.
-Aaaannddd…I’m getting into my weird thinking owl mode; NOT GOOD

how many people care?
Raise your hands!!!

*raises both hands*