Choti*

Inspiration? Kahan?

So its been over a month and half since i wrote here. Life’s been on a total roll. The past month went by SO fast that I hardly got time to sit and ‘think’ about it all… you know… Life! The time went by smooth. I travelled to Dhaka, work trip. It was a 10 day trip worth a separate blog post. Came back rushed to Lahore for Hina’s wedding. Lahore trip was one of a kind. Travelling with friends and that too for leisure is always fun. Well it was a first trip for us together and too for a shaadi. Good fun! Amidst all this chaos, Maria surprised us with her wedding proposal and that as soon as we’re back she gets get nikah done. So yess!!! Life was on a roll.

Now on the work front, GPCS has been on a roll as well Alhamdolillah. SAARC mela with Choti and Amy went by great. I think the idea of sharing a stall was good. I didn’t really have time to prepare on a larger scale anyways. And Amy and Choti turned out to be great companions 🙂

Buttt…. I need my mojo back. I need my inspiration back. I need an owl nighter… I’m working but I feel something is missing… that spark… that moment.. where I tell myself.. WHAT A WOW-er that was!
Overall, it has been okay okay, Alhamdollillah.

Allah Mian? Soo? Whats up?

Ps: I see a tunnel
And I see light at the end of it
I need to get there…soon.


Sparkly 25!

Long over due blog post.. been sitting in my drafts.

01.03.2011
Heres to 25 years of awesomsauce!

I’m all sparkly and happy and content in the heart. Big Big Alhamdolillah! So yeah.. it’s a milestone.silver jubilee. Silver..chaandi..sparkly..starry. *dreamy-eyes* Birthday wishes started pouring in from 11:30pm as the phone rang and I see Choti calling to wish me. She was sleepy and just couldn’t stay up for another half an hour 😉 and in another 20 mins or so… I was 25! Baba sang the birthday song and together Ammi and Baba showered me with duas and love. Thoroughly missed saad at midnight as he was stuck with projects at school.

The day started with Ada’s call from Dubai. It was a beautiful cloudy morning, one of those mornings when u wish it were a holiday and you’d hit the beach and chill. The day went by great. There was some work piled up from last week, since I was mentally exhausted with the opening of ‘Handmade’. Amidst of phone calls and responding to msgs I finished all the work too. You know…. birthdays bring in awesome energy! 😀

My students from 2nd year surprised me with a cake and flowers and a LOUD birthday wish. I love these girls. They were all giggly and happy and excited and I was just a little bit more of ALL of that. Alhamdolillah. It’s a good feeling to be loved by your own students. Rushed back to the office to see my Indus family Immi, wardha, Kamran and Umer ready with the nandos cake and lunch 🙂 Theres something about the nandos cake. Its justtt.. umm. Plain SCRUMPTIOUS! 😀 [yes that’s a BIG smile]. So we cut the cake, called the final years students to join in 😀

Choti came with yellow and white flowers[LOVE] and bravo cookies and mousse cake. Just for the record a lil funny story regarding the mousse cake now. I opened the box, clearly didn’t see that it was mousse cake, closed the box thinking, I’ll have it later. Later never came. Got home and put it in the fridge. Opened the box post midnight to see a scrumptious disaster in a box *laughs* Love you Choti!

Met S at Dunkin after school for a bit. Hit nandos for a quick peri-bites and cake celebration. Met Mimi and my handsome kaaklu. Hit home. Aqsa and Bhai came over with flowers and ferrerro’s 🙂 Ohkay in all this chaos my Saaday was missing and that didn’t make me happy. We were almost abt to cut the cake at home when I said, I want saad to be here. And bhai said, lets go to Indus and surprise saad. Yes we’re all crazy adventurous freaks. So we packed a picnic basket and reached school.

ALL the boys including the twins, Family, Mimi n Kaaklu and S were there. Missing were Ada-Mayg.api and the girls, Buddy m + hero and the
clan. I missed buddy m, hero and the clan the most when we decided to do the OYE! *heart-melt moment* We had a little party and the boys got back to
work and we left for home.

The day went by great *Big Alhamdolillah*. Duas from the multiple sets of parents in my life. Love from friends and people around workplace and otherwise. Whattta sparkly happy 25th! =D *BIG Alhamdolillah*

PS:Special mention: 100 points for originality to S. You truly made my day –Hello kitty and BamBam.


Dear Today, You were Awesome!

The mental alarm rang before the phone alarm. I was up before time. A little sleepy, a lot tired.. That’s how I felt but there were good vibes about today. Happy vibes – a little weird since it was a Monday. Usually Mondays are hectic and tiring and boring and loaded with work.

So I started the day with a session with Naaan. I walk up the stairs missing all the good times I’ve had on campus as a student and how carefree student life is… brain waves…10 mins later sidra walks up the stairs and she hands me flowers. “Miss these are for you”. Heart-melt moment. That was a sweet gesture and considering the fact that I LOVE flowers. She clearly made my day at 9:15am. Good happy vibes UHU-ed for the day babehh!! 😀 I made a vase for the flowers and they sat on my table in front of my eyes the whole day *blissful* they were a pink and 2 white flowers. I’m no pink fan but yes I loved that pink flower (boo: NO I be NO Barbie)

I ran around happy, working. A lil while later Mariam comes in with kitkats. I mean what IS happening today. Ohkay so mariam and I had a deal and she owed me kitkats. Yes I like kitkats 😀 so today was the fortunate day when I got kitkats too. Sweet of her, she packed them nicely, doodled on a card and attached it with it. That made my day too. 10:30am Check!!

I had confirmed A that I’ll buy the tripod she was selling. I had plans of picking it over the weekend but she had a busy Sunday. She called and said that she can drop by Indus to hand over the Tripod. Hell yea! I got the tripod too. Allah Mian, yeh kyaa hora hai. So many khushiyaan! Alhamdolillah.

On Red day me and a student talked about love-day being everyday and that even f she wanted to give me something she would do it any other day and NOT on Valentine’s Day. I loved her that instant. We thought on the same lines. So Zahra comes in with an envelope and that she wrote me a not-so-love-letter. Cutie! That was a funny letter. Love u Zahra ❤

Got a Chance to have a chat with Choti after a looooong time. School bonding sessions are just different. Love u Choti. I come back to my cubicle and I see a ‘heart shaped’ bookmark stick from Khadija. I mean these girls just made my day complete.

Today was just different. It was an Awesome day.
Thankyou Allah Mian 😀


Thankyou Allah Mian..

…for all the goodness around me.. that i sometimes fail to see… understand….absorb.
Thankyou for all the blessings..friends.. family….people around me..
For all the duas that keep me rolling..the calls from nani…Ammi..Baba..
the skill.. the talent.. that keeps me going.. the faith that everything will turn out great..
I do tend to think otehrwise.. sometimes.. the tummy in the knot bothers me..
but for that u’ve given me friends who try and help me get away that feeling..
Thankyou for giving me Choti… Thankyou for giving me S..Ada..Mayg api.. Manoo…Mehruu..
Thankyou for every little thing.. like the teeniest weeniest thing that u’ve blessed me with.
Allah mian.. Aap buhat AALA hain!

Let the faith remain! let the goodness flow!
Let it all come my way..ALL whats the best for me..
Allah Mian.. So?? You know what i’d askk…
Whats the plan? Hain hain 😉


2011.. already?

This new years eve.. i didnt do anything “exciting” at all. I sat outside.. rooftopped a little while.. then was told by a dear friend that it wouldnt be safe to stay outside with flying bullets around.. so i came back in. I wasnt excited.. i had a rush of thoughts that came to my mind. Questions that needed answers. I thought to myself.. another year passed..did i achieve much? or for that matter did i achieve anything at all?

Well 2010 was very happening. With good and beautiful things came in the bad and ugly!

The year started off happy with a goal to save money. This had to be the year of savings. Work life got busy. SAARC mela.Thanking Allah mian. I admired things around me. Gave them attention. My 24th birthday was celebrated several times in the most special manner with my most special people. MJ and the flushed peace! India trip- a trip of a lifetime with the students. Delhi and Kolkatta! More travelling. Thar. Independent teaching and travelling. more responsibility. Got my own domain as a birthday present. 13AM. The rooftop became more special. Its become my escapade now. Some chinngum songs. Did a very special project for Photographics.The Summer break. Bonding. Endless chai and coffee sessions, popcorns. chairman mao. Half the year went by quick.

The 2nd half literally RAN as if it were in a race to get to the finish line…the finish line of 2010. Some friends got engaged.. some married.. some broke up. All these stories around me made me a stronger person. My faith high..Thankyou Allah mian. Someone elses happiness was bound to become my own… endless hugs. love. new friends…friends becoming close friends.. close friends becoming closer..sisterly bonds increasing. Saxaphone and the post midnight crackpottiness. My new phone. Nokia 6760. My goal- resolution for 2010 was to get myself a DSLR and i did. 2010 did turn out to be the year of savings. Alhamdolillah.

Ghazal Pirzada Creative Studios taking a new dimension for the world. Facebook page, exhibitions. Sparkles. Allah mians plan for me. My endless special prayers and continuous series of questions. good times. bad times. arguments and fights. Swallowing down anger.. trying to be a better person and succeeding as well. More people walking in and less people walking out =) Being best friends with mahnoor and enjoying mehru’s childhood. Photographing. PS and AI courses and scoring the highest! Well Yes.. lots of achievements. My first batch of students.. graduated with tears of joy! Random people praising my efforts and acknowledging me. The feeling of being blessed and praying for everyones behtari.

Its been a roller coaster ride..lots of memories to treasure for life… good and bad.
2011 came just too early. Allah mian make this year the best of years for me
and accept all those special prayers i make for them special people in my life.

Raah Pay Kante Bikhre agar, Uspay to phir bhi chalna he hai,
Shaam Chhupalay Suraj magar, Raat ko ek din Dhalna he hai,
Rut ye tal jayegi, Himmat rang layegi,
Subha phir aayegi

2011! u better be good.

Resolution:
Save more money. Bring the gullak to good use!
Be a better person.


Hello December!

So i feel that time flew this year on because it went by great(well yeah mosst of it) and i am very very thankful for it! Alhamdolillah

-I miss Ada very much. He’s been crazy busy with work and we hardly get to talk. But ada.. u musst know that i’m praying for you all the time.
-I did conquer the world when i bought the long awaited Canon D550. Thoroughly enjoying it but its been crazy otherwise that i still havent explored it inside out.. but will do soon.
-Winter break coming up! weeeeeeeehoo!!!
-3 years at workplace will be complete as soon as semester ends. Inshallah.
-My first batch of students-friends-juniors graduate in a weeks time 🙂
-This convocation will be very special, Munim and sheeraz graduate! *blessed*
-I love winters because u can cozy up though i get the coldest fingers and toes *dangerous*
-Need to do some serious sockies shopping
-Celebrated Mehr’s 1st birthday. It was an awesome idea for Mayg api and the kids to drop by. Missed Ada like crazy.
-Mahnoor and I continue being the best of friends 😀
– Lifes on a roll and i’m loving every bit of it.
-Nani is doing a lot better. Alhamdolillah.
-Baba ammi visiting makes our home complete.
-The ‘achi choti cheez’ bought in lots of laughter
-Alumni show coming up in a week! 😀
Ghazal Pirzada Creative Studios has 436 fans as of today. Its a great feeling, random people appreciating your work, ordering and coming back with a bunch of happy stories. BIG alhamdolillah 😀
-Illustrator and Photoshop courses ended yesterday. Great learning. Need lots of practice =)
-Friends have been close where random acquaintances became friends.
-Choti has a printmaking minor and its been long since we had a balcony session. Feels like a part of me is missing.
-Ayezu got married a few days back. Mashallah she made a gorgeous bride.
-Its a great feeling when friends randomly msg saying i made their day. Its a happy feeling.
-I am soooo thankful for these special people around me..they make my life complete.
Allah Mian, I am still curious about the plan. With the year almost coming to an end.. Am all ready and heads on for 2011! Inshallah.
But but.. Whats the plann?? =D


Halfway October..

-Lifes been a roller coaster and it has no rewind button
-Just sometimes i wish there was a rewind button
-30 years of awesomeness for Baba and Ammi *Love*
-Ada and familys ‘sumprise’ official-family visit was just great
-Mahnoor continues to not share Phupo with Mehru and remains my best friend *thumbs up*
-October was supposed to be camera month for me..but instead became camera month for S (am glad though)
-But i’m still hopeful. 2010 is the year for me. Still 2 more months to go =)
-I finally used my wiltons color gels for Saads 22nd birthday cake. Turned out great.
-Nani’s ‘special’ DUA makes me smile
-I learnt abt BMWs a little.
-Recent trips to billboard have been funny.
-Bonding with Buddy M was awesome. Needed that doze.
-Choti got a qwerty too. Thats a good chain reaction. Boo!
-Me and choti plan to walk together till we’re 60. The thought makes me smile.
-Icecream makes me happy. Chocolate chunk cookies make me happier. Anaar juice made me the Happiest =)
-Am enjoying workplace and my cubicle a LOT.
-Gotta do some serious baking soon.
-Lots of ideas.work.doodles need to be done.
-Did a very interesting ‘envelopy’ project =)
-PGCA is amaaazing.
-Working on a mini DK project. Shall share when done
-Did some doodles and proud of them.
-Adobe illustrator and Photoshop are a blessing
-Numerology is interesting
-Noori.Ali azmat.Mauj- Should be fun.
-H2H with ammi turned out great.
-Havent read a good book in 2 months.
-I washed my USB and the Ipod with my Jeans. The USB survived, the ipod didnt.
-Its just half of October gone and its seems like forever. Why is time running all of a sudden?
-Lifes tough but adventurous.. am Glad.
-Praying brings me back the faith.
*Blessed* =)

PS: I LOVE starry nights.


Allah Mian, Whats the plan?

Allah Mian is always good to us, someway or the other. He has a plan for everyone and it IS a good plan. Well yea, most of the times I am convinced. There are some parts of your life that you thoroughly enjoy, while some suck the fun out of it; some very tough and some sail by smooth. Some parts make you strong, stronger than before while some come back and worry you. Some parts of your life are like candies, they taste well and then they vanish. Some parts you never imagine them to be like the way they are while some make you the person you are.
There have been several parts of my life that made me the person that I am. I became stronger than before, more confident, independent and devoted. I became happier as a person. My faith went high. I became more n more patient. I thanked Allah mian for every little thing He gave me. Loving parents, two precious brothers, a sister-like bhabi, 2 beautiful nieces, an awesome bunch of friends, S, Choti – a sister I always wished for, a satisfying job, a running business and lots more.
There are times when I want things to happen there n then. I become impatient. I want to know whats ahead of me, but then knowing whats ahead of me will kill the fun. While there are times I become all strong only because that would be the best option and later things come back rolling pulling me back in the den.
Yesterday was just great. Other than me being tired and running around all day, what made me happy was to meet old friends, having the precious one around to help and just be there. Choti’s firefly becoming a hit (Alhamdolillah), scrutinizing a camera which will become our property soon Inshallah. Dinner with the crazy clan and chai back home.
Things are good.
But but Allah Mian, I have a question.

Whats the plan??


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Choti: Api, please smille. you’re abnormal when u dont.
Me: I’m smiling choti.

*A thought that comes in later, Am i really not smiling?*


A very happy 24th :)

The clock struck 11:45 pm and my most fantabulous birthday started with Buddy M’s call. This year round i didnt pre-plan my day. I just wanted to play along and enjoy every moment spontaneously and i cant thank enough Allah mian for giving me such a wonderful day with a zillion little big amazing memories to cherish for a life time. Alhamdolillah! Blessed i be 🙂

M’s shaadi week started. Amidst of her dholki madness i recieved birthday wishes via call and msgs and hugs. My friends around me singing ‘jungle mein mangal teray he dam say..kisnay yeh shor machayaa hai.. salgirah ka din aaya hai..’ what fun!!!

Birthday being on a week day has its own charm, though a birthday weekend is what one wishes for. The day started absolutely well, with special heart-warming prayers form all the loving elderlies at workplace. Hugs and love from the colleagues. A huge surprise from Ammi who teamed up with my students and got cake, flowers and balloons at school. Love her for being such a loving young-at-heart kinda mom. My final year students who were my first lot whom i taught, got a cake and flowers 🙂 My current students, the 2nd years got a scrumptious chocolate cake and some more flowers too! Later i got to know that they had been planning for it since friday. Sweet kids.

Tim and Zaid came to wish me at workplace, we re-lived old thesis times. Its such a great feeling to be loved by SO many people altogether. Never felt the same before. The day went by busy with work and chaos. The most special 10 mins were spent with choti at the end of the day. Made a surprise visit to nani’s, she was happy beyond limits 😀

Later at home, Bhai and Ayezu came for a surprise visit which i actually ruined (unintentionally). I reached home and saw Bhai waiting for Ayezu at the gate *cuties*. Cut the cake with them. The cake read ‘Happy Birthday Api’. Buddy M made a special appearance later at night! All in all, It was a great great birthday to treasure for life. 4 cakes on the 24th 😀 A special celebration with C and S followed the next day!

Got a call from Mahnoor, cutie. Waiting for the card she made for me.

They say that its hard to find people who love you, care for you. I musst say am truly blessed to have SO many people loving me. Alhamdolillah! Thanks to everyone who made my 24th very special!! 🙂

Special thanx to Ammi, Baba, Ada, Mayg api, Mahnoor, Saad, Mate, Shammy, Choti, The Twins, buddy m, Hero, Bhaiyyu, Buddy M, Ayezu, Eefa and everyone who called and made my day! Love.

01.03.2010


*f.r.i.e.n.d.s*

At times one needs just ‘one’ friend to spend quality time with.

o. Plan to go for a movie with a friend on a saturday and for the next 2 hours you end up at a nearby mall because the house full saturday was just NOT for you. Nonetheless, time well spent with some book shopping and bonding, rare of its kind.
o. A friend comes over and with them you inaugurate the new frother you got. With lots of fun and LOTS of things to talk about, you LEARN how to use the frother.
o. The ‘smiley face’ and the ‘starry night’ meet.
o. Just 10 mins of a heart to heart session at workplace with C can make my day.
o. A very old friend, back from college calls just to ask how i am doing. Feels great. Thanx AK.
o. Making new friends has never been difficult for me but most of them just wipe their feet away and leave. I hope this new friend stays.
o. Mothers can be your best friends IF you give them a chance.
o. There are just a few people i can REALLY call friends and i absolutely LOVE all of them!

Blessed i be =)


Happy 2010!

So yea..Its flashback time, a little*just a little* late but yea… for the record.

The Year 2009, the year when life changed for the better, bigger experiences came in, a lot of laughter and happiness revailed, new members in the family were inducted, new friends were made for life, bonding sessions that meant the most and will last forever =)

Looking back, it all started great Alhamdolillah. I was soooo looking forward to 2009 with faith high, up in the sky. Saad started FY at Indus and with it my 2nd year at work started, Abida Parveen- Live in concert, largest event at Indus organized, 23rd birthday, first International trip as faculty to ‘Thailand’ with my best friends as students, early april Dadi passed away, Basant happened at school and later came an opportunity to manage a band, joined [NO IDEA] as manager for 6 months, New friends came into being; Boo, AD and Amy, Choti’s birthday happened which was magical for her =)

Pakistan sign language(PSL) certification, lots of cake treats and bonding sessions, Sidrah got married, doodling came into existence for me, roof-topping, chocolates, more photography, one on one with Allah Mian, admiring the sunsets more, starry nights and casanova Mr Chand Mian, voice of the dying horse… trips back home, gullak money, birthdays made special, hero-Buddy M-Best friend, my junior lot-best friends-hero and buddy M gang graduated, -‘Dost’- happened, I became Phupo once again to a beautiful niece ‘Mehr Fatima’, also became Khala to my handsome nephew ‘Raaif’, Bibi passed away(no more dua wali candies) but lots of prayers remained, Maria got nikahofied, heart to heart sessions, photography competitions, barbies, Alumni show, found my ‘Real Unbiological Sister’ this year, prayed more, hopes were high, faith was higher, ended with a full moon and a happy person photo shoot with chotaaay.

All in all, a fantastic-happening-happy-year, Welcoming the new year with open arms with prayers and faith n patience to cope up with all the tough times life has to offer and cherish all the good times for years to come. Inshallah. Ameen.

Happy 2010 folks!
=)

Resolution 2010:
-be a better person
-get DSLR =)


*being there…*

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“True friendship isn’t about being there when it’s convenient; it’s about being there when it’s not.”

What is -being there- all about? Being there for someone when they need you? How do u know they need you? Why would you be there for them?Damn, Thats just too many questions :$

For me, its ALL about ‘being there’ for my people, my friends.

Be it just being there to hear ’em out or be it exchanging chocolates(Twix-hersheys) or be it by sharing an OWL mode night or be it to help over a deadly submission or just be there to hear them scream over how crappy life is and things are just not going to happen. Being there also means to provide a shoulder to cry on or even giving a faithful boost. Be it messaging a menu for a zillion kinds of kabab rolls so that you could order food before you collapse after a hectic-crazy-sleepless-crack.potty-mode! Its all about being there for your people.

Its ALSO about being there to make people happy, be there for them when they most need you physically or mentally, or emotionally or message-ly. How just one message on your cellphone could make your day just because a friend has been there for you. Being there in times of despair, sickness. Being there to make them tea as they want it to be. Being there when they have mood swings(bad ones). Be there to cheer ’em up and bring them back their Faith! Being there to remind them about how beautiful this life is and maybe a little patience would make things seem better. Be there to pray for them, their life, their sifarish*, their betterment. Be there to wake them up so that they don’t get late for their morning routine. Compromise on things and be there…
Sigh.. just be there…

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same


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•I miss nana the most
•And ada too…
•Prayers give me satisfaction
•I strive for the best and mostly get where I want to(i be lucky)
•You are an art creative when u have UHU(glue tube) in your handbag and no lip-gloss or Kajal for that matter.
•I’ve seen Ice age 1 and 3, 2 still remains in the unseen movies.
•Ramzan passed by reaaaaal quick, alhamdolillah
•I love the jhoola.
•Group hugs? Anytime!
•Khwab adhooray sahi, khwab saharay toh hain!!!!
•I love flowers
•In the past 2 weeks, I received 2 personalized cd’s with songs for me. Bhai(rahat) and choti. thanx =)
•I say I am blessed with the best of friends, are you?
•I love making people happy.
•There are just a few people who know exactly whats going on.
•I recently dropped my phone in sheer-khurma and it survived the dive 😉 Phew, Alhamdolillah
•I have just one black bangle left from my India trip. Somebodyy… get me the same ones…
•I wish to wake up in a room full of balloons someday.
•…I feel your whisper, across the sea.
•Cold coffee at -7 star- has become the latest pleasure 😀
•I like personalized presents, even if it’s a random little handwritten note.
•I’ll spend money on rings not clothes
•Funnily ouch-ed; Fouched*
•Pink is Not me yet it suits me the best!
•Ammi’s are the Best!
•I workout at night
•I *on a serious note* AVOID medicines.
•I wish I could give reall *jkj*’s everyday =)
•Iktara isss the chinngum song at the moment.
•And I guess Bus..Tonight I MUST sleep before my eyes disappear from my face.
•I say life’s good!!!!


*The Unbiological Sister*

G* says:L!
V says:?
G* says:L for loser
G* says:L for lover
G* says:L for Lame
V says:rite now i feel like a loser
G* says:L for Lamb of god..
G* says:L for larki..
G* says:C for Choti!
G* says: =)
V says:S for stupid… L for loving…
V says:S for L
V says:Stupid for Loving
G* says:well…
G* says:F for Faith
G* says:A for in ‘Allah Mian!’
G* says:B for Behtari
G* says:D for DUA!
G* says:H for Hug…
G* says:that toooo a big tight one
V says: yaar… rulao nahi