NANI- The frosting in my life :)

They say grandmothers are mothers with lots of frosting.

I wouldn’t deny that, My Nani, my confidant, my friend and quota of special prayers is a whole lot of frosting in my life. Most kids are given into their mothers hands when they are born while I was the lucky one who was first given into Nani’s arms and then Ammi’s. Being the only girl in the maternal equation, I share a very special bond with Nani.

She was diagnosed with diabetes the day I was born she says. So this killer-godforsaken-disease (I’d like to call it that) has now sucked out the life out of her. Lately she’s been really unwell, not going into details. I didn’t know one could be this brave with life but going through so much pain without complaining is a big deal. Mashallah.

There are so many things in life you don’t feel till a certain incident becomes a close eye-opener for you. Be it something you go through or a close one does. It feels the same. I fall short on words describing the situation and my lips start trembling and my eyes water. Her illness has been such a lifelong lesson regarding SO many things.

I couldn’t have asked for a better grandparent than her. The love, the bond and blessings. I am so grateful to Allah mian to have been able to spend so many years of my life in her nest.

*allah mian please* Make it behtar for her. Ameen.

Sometimes…

…i just walk out to the rooftop and breathe. Breathe in the fresh air.
The cold windy breeze.. i shut my eyes and breathe in deep.
The freshness that reaches my lungs makes me smile.
While the stars and chand mian shine down upon me…
I hug the winds and smile
Allah mian… THANKYOU!
Please continue to be meherbaan… please. Ameen.
*dhk dhk*

thankfully 2012!

Lifes at a total high at the moment. With Nani feeling better and my heart being content with all what I got, theres really SO much to be thankful for that I don’t think any post can do justice to it but yes for my own record. The yr 2012 is here! I say, this should be a year of change. A good change…a better change, Inshallah.

I am currently in the land of the shaykhs aka Dubai(staying at sharjah). A long awaited vacation, the best of its kind since it revolves around my nieces, M n M. Manoo has been more excited than I’d ever be for phupo coming over and sharing her room. There are countless moments in the day when I’m hugged and kissed and thanked for ‘coming to dubai and having so much fun’ and mehru lovingly follows what apa has to do so for phupo it’s a double dose of awesomeness! Alhamdolillah. Whatta precious! Thanks to Ada and Mayg Api for having me over. Its been 2 days and its awesome. A separate post would be good about the trip altogether

In other news, switched to an HTC. So yes, theres been progression. At first a qwerty and now a qwerty + touch and THAT too HTC chacha! So the phone reached me as a surprise, earlier than expected. Totally left me in awe and happy in my heart type. Allah Mian Thankyou.

Heres to welcoming 2012 with open arms, with more challenges and plans on the list. May Allah mian make them jaaiz and easy to fulfill for me. 2011 was awesome, Allah mian? So whats the plan Faith high, UP in the sky!

Happy new year ya’ll!
ps96: Happy birthday oh precious!

Worries and crispy cookies

Life is full of worries IF you’d like it to be like it! Im not saying forget them worries, because i feel you think about the issues in life and thats when you find a solution for them and make things better for yourself. Sometimes things arent in your control, nope! Somebody stole the remote control you see So, how about ignoring your worries for a while and do something without a reason? I say this without thinking twice because I did something similar.

So winter break started for me and the workaholic me refuses to take a break. Work is on my mind ALL the time. So i distracted my brain from work and caught myself walking towards the kitchen. Found my hands reaching the baking cabinet and voila! I transformed into Master Microwave Baker GP! I had to choose in between cake and cookies and the cookies won. Oatmeal choco chip cookies. Mmmhmm yummy!

Remember the first-microwave-cookies-experiment?

This time i was a pro, the new microwave was put to test and i baked cookies for no good reason. There was no special occasion but the fact that i was celebrating the beginning of my winter break! Good feeling no? So they turned out scrumptious, victory was shared with family here and on skype and on call with friends Awesomeness to the ‘next level’ as a cousin would put it!

Life at 3am

Last night I couldnt sleep mostly because I took a power nap and woke up post midnight to cover up on pending work. There was discomfort. A weird dream during the power nap is what I vaguely remember. Didnt give it much thought and it disappeared or maybe not. I wasnt thinking yet there was something bothering me… Ya know the heavy hearted feeling. I shut the lid to the laptop and decided to walk outside. Breathe in some fresh air and smile with the stars… The stars never let me down. I thought of Nana, Wado Baba, Haji Ama and Bibi last night. The wonders Nana’s presence would have done to me at this point in time. The duas Haji Ama and Bibi showered upon me all my life. *Blessings*
Allah Mian, Thankyou

ps. not my own image, found it online.

20.11.2011

Today, I smiled.
I smiled when i saw a smile
I smiled when I heard the song
I smiled when the winds hit my face
When my ponytail flew with the wind
I shut my eyes and took a deep breath
With my eyes closed, I smiled big
I smiled when I saw stars
I smiled when my hands got cold
And warmth touched me
I smiled when the car took a U turn
I smiled big and satisfied.
Alhamdolillah for the wonderful things in life

*Thankyou Allah Mian*

Power of 2

for O&B

2 lies:
_I’m okay, I’ll be okay (partial lie partial truth)

2 truths:
_If i make you feel special, I really love you and would do anything for you and if i dislike you, I wont say anything but just take a step back and never come back. When i say i forgive you, i actually do. I dont remember fights, arguments mostly, unless and until it REALLY scarred me from the inside.
_Regrets HURT!

2 dreams:
_Be independent n happy and do something of my own. I’m living my dream Alhamdolillah!
_To be successful in this world and hereafter. Inshallah

2 failures:
_I fail to understand why people dont trust their own instincts, why they have so many bad things to say about everyone and everything, why they dont Thank Allah mian for what they’ve been blessed with. I fail to understand where the feeling of being content has disappeared in all these years? Wheres the world running to? What is everyone running after?

2 loves:
_Nani, ammi, baba, ada, saad, maygapi, mahnoor and mehr(Family)
_Work, smiles, stars, Allah mian (Life)

Life at 2pm

How cruel can life be at times, one would think most of the time?
Have we ever thought how things are better for you than someone else, if you’d think like this; there would be a BIG Alhamdolillah on its way at all times.
Thank Allah mian for all that He decided to give you or even take away from you. There had to be some behtari in it, nai? I’m blessed to be adhering to the feeling of being content, that balance in life, that happiness, that inner peace with how life is.
Ps. Bearing inner peace doesn’t mean I stop working hard for my goals, there is a constant war between the inner peace, contentment and what I wish to do with my life. Haye!

Lifes good… well yes most of it

‎10th October: Favourite room in the house

Thats my room – MY space -
Where I spend hours creating things
working on projects all night long
reading, writing, listening to music
happily conquering the chaos
*Spreading happiness one creative creation at a time*

8th october: Childhood Adventures.

We had our apartment under construction a lot of many years back. Regular visits were made to check the status. paint jobs, furniture fixtures, kitchen/bathroom tiles, flooring, electrical fitting, the GRILL gate. period.
One fine day me and lil bro were also taken along to visit the under construction apartment and after entering the apartment I very kindly decided to shut the gates behind me.
I held on to the grill gate by its handles and pulled the gate towards me to lock it and VOILA! i got the most powerful electric shock of my life. I got stuck to the gate. with screams echoing through the apartment building lil bro came to rescue and while I went shuddery with the current in my body lil bro pulled me with my clothes and THAT is how ladies and gentlemen I am here, sitting in my seat, sipping on chai and writing this post as my childhood Adventure that almost took my life away.

After effects: Electrocuted shivery body and POOFED up hair like we see in cartoons. No exaggeration. I.Promise
*Allah Mian Thankyou for blessing me with life*